The story of a strong boy named nigel

dont break me down.

2007-01-01T16:06:00.000+08:00

you're killing me, killing me...

what if i wanted to break?

grrr, i'm finished with this. seriously, the end. imma just gonna sit back and let everything flow. this is too much for me to take, and i'm just gonna shut up.

fuck, fergie is hot.

bye

your history is mine.

2006-10-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

hey. haven't been blogging for ages. well i'm 17 now. i miss you people back there ay. of all things nigel must do, is to get drunk on a school night. but damn, i just had to. haha. getting drunk is so much better. but not as good as going to gigs and stuff. well i guess i just love anything that allows me to let go of my life. just throw myself out and feel the adreneline pump through my body, my mind and my heart. i'm messed up right now, i feel all spinny and shit. i've got early start tmr, and i dont feel like going for it. sometimes i just wish i could just become a rockstar or just fucking strike the lottery. life would be so much easier ay. i'd just escape this place and take my mates to wherever, buy a house, get A BUTLER, buy anything. i could be the next bam margera. haha. this world is too hard for me ay. i try, but maybe i'm just not trying hard enough. anyway, i hope everyone of you are doing fine. you know i always want all of you to be happy. just gimme a ring if you need someone to talk to. that means you, nat, claire, rese, nat, jeannine, anyone else. sorry if i didn't mention your name. but you're always invited to call me. i love you all. (:

take care.
love
nigel.

it's okay to hide.

2006-09-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

one thing i've learnt is when you feel all bottled up and low, theres nothing wrong going to your shell and hide. it's actually fruitful, depending on what you do. deposit the bad stuff, dont keep all the good stuff. sometimes less is more. the more space you have, the more good stuff you can take. my dear friends, even when we tell each other and advise each other about things, when we say we will always be there for each other. but bear in mind, we all have our own cross to carry and in the long run we're going to get through it all alone. when i look at my friends fight/quarrel or whatever, and i think back to myself and ask why do we have to do this? it pains me having to watch this happen when i'm all the way here. is it worth having 50 friends when most of them never learn how to compromise or just have 5 friends and live happily. australia is so different from singapore. especially the people. when you go to a party, and you see your friend making out with another girl from some random group, you dont get people talking and start bitching about any of them or how slutty she is. lets just say, singaporeans are nosy. or even say singaporeans love making other people's business their own.not pint pointing to anyone. but i just think we teenagers nowadays lack the ability of thinking of consequences and BALANCING whether it's for a good cause or for a cause you think is good for you. it's not just a short process of whether you thought about the consequences and it makes you feel good. this world is filled with scheming bastards, be it your friend or not. from this point on, i'm gonna be waffling my way till i decide to stop. sometimes i wish my friends can think the way i do. not saying i have the best thinking, but i think my thinking will cause lesser problems. you can't have everything you want, and even if you think you can have something and it feels so real and it's definitely gonna be there but you find out it wont be yours and it wont go your way. don't force your way to it, you wont get there. YOU CANT HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT OR WHAT YOU THINK YOU CAN HAVE. shit happens. FUCKING SHIT HAPPENS. bear that in mind. i miss the old days where i hang out with my 2 buddies from school/ church/ servers. marc and gabriel. you two really helped me so much in building my character. you two laid the foundation down for me. heaps of shit happened between us but we held on soo god damn tightly. i love you two. our history remains our history. i wouldn't trade the world for any memories we shared. well one thing is, you two were lucky to find good girlfriends that will last. i guess i was a failed experiment. hah. maybe one day, maybe not. this year is quite shit actually to think about it. so much bad shit has happened more than the good stuff. i just want to get this year over and done with. i wanna get out of so many of my classes in school. i'm so afraid of my future, i'm so afraid to plan. i dont know where i'll be 2 years down the road. what will i be doing? i only have rough drafts of plans of what i want to do but im damn helll sure that i'm not putting the effort into it, why? cause i'm afraid. my life is missing something, it's not a girl. but it's something more. and what makes me think that i will ever find that something that will make my life all happy and shit. maybe i would find something less than perfect but still be happy with it. may angels lead you in. such a good song by JEW, ha! i just realised that. Jimmy Eat World. well they're probably jew anyways. let me pose a question, what do you tell ppl when they ask why do you listen to your sorta music. your genre. i listen to mainly emo and stuff, but it really all depends on my moods. i guess i just listen to songs that fits my mood. songs that make me feel comfortable with how i'm feeling. i guess music is my only comfort zone now. good ol' music. do you know jeff buckley? did you know he died of depression? he covered the song hallelujah. and most of his songs were very depressing. these are the people who actually have passion. real thick rock hard passion. you know i hate people who lie to their parents. if it's a little small white lie, it's cool. but when they lie about something that is so god damn mother fucking big. it pisses me off so damn bad. i mean, even if you're spoilt and you're god damn old enough. think man. seriously. THINK! consequences, good or bad? effectiveness? thank god i actually came here to study. what i learn in class i can damn hell apply it in life. analysing, thinking about it's effectiveness, comparing and all that shit. it makes you understand and start thinking. it actually moulds you. oh, and i sooo hate it when people tell others to do things and say stuff like, oh if you're not then why should i. that sorta shit. fucking stop telling each other about it. you people know what is ideal. start working towards it. for the last few days, i've been sent out of class and i always look at this poster that says, "if you want respect, be the first to show it." it applys to the situation as well. you think someone's not mature, why not you start thinking and be more mature and be the role model for ppl to learn and follow. nowadays, i'm so afraid to appear online when i go online. cause for the last week or 2 i've understood how loneliness sometimes feels so good. for now, i just wish my family could sit down as a whole family and have a nice family dinner. i miss having a family dinner. in about 17 days, it will be exactly a year our family haven't sat down together as a family and have a meal. do you want to be famous? i think being famous is cool. i wouldn't mind being famous if i could. ha. the feeling would be awesome, walking around and people go like. whoa look who it is that sorta thing. thats soo cool. my eyes lids are like half opened. i'm so tired. having a headache and stuff. lets hope i'll still be sick in the morning tmr. so i wont have to go to school. oh man, fuck this. i cant be fucked typing anymore. bye

2006-08-30T19:41:00.000+08:00

Story Of The Year - Razorblades
Yeah, Yeah
Walking example of you
Wait for the silence
Talking backwards to you
It meant nothing to me
Watching the world fall on you
I'm keeping my eyes closed
Now I can see what this means to you
It meant nothing to me
[Chorus]
This wasted so many nights and again
I've wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end
Perfect timing for you
You'll run 'til your legs break
So here's my reminder of you
It meant nothing to me
[Chorus]
This wasted so many nights and again
I've wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end...GO!
We should've seen this coming
We should've seen this...
YEAH! YEAH!
[Chorus x2]
This wasted so many nights and again
I've wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end
YEAH! This is the END!

only today did i realise how much this song can be dedicated to you.
god bless you.
yea i really hope he does.
ciao

double effect.

2006-08-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

Hey there, i haven't been blogging much. well cause i cant be bothered. but tonight i've been too damn bored already. In Singapore everyone is at nic's party. oh yes, happy birthday Nic! and in australia, i think zac and stace are at dave's. what a loner i am la. haha. my classmate actually wanted to call me out, but i had to work. then when i came home, another classmate called me, but i missed it. then i can't return his call cause i dont have any credit. ah well. suprisingly, the only person i'm talking to now is shaun andy. hahaha. he talked to me. anyway, i'm just gonna go continue watching my POKER! oooo yea. okay bye

1 month

2006-07-30T16:36:00.000+08:00

i just went through a month of ups and downs. i really enjoyed myself and had a good time. though some times there was shit to dampen the mood, but it's cool. i don't blame anyone at all. it was great meeting up with all my friends again, i've missed them so much and now i'm already beginning to miss them even more when i'm sitting in my living room with the sound of my buzzing fridge and me typing on the keyboards. i love 4th avenue, the people in it. i love the other ppl who made my life better. thanks erin and mitch for a good time at the chalet.
bottom line, i had a good time.

cheers
love ya all.

2006-07-17T16:01:00.000+08:00

this is to the people of A VACANT AFFAIR the band that is so fucking awesome.
they were spectacular at baybeats. had more fun than last year's baybeats. though i hope brand new sunset can come back and play. actually, i wish 4th avenue can play as well. haha. maybe in 3 years time. ah well. i wanna see sky on stage man. argh. the local scene definitely has a very bright future. thanks to the good people of ava. they are living proof of how we all can achieve something if we put my mind to it.

three cheers to ava.

thats enough for now. see yas.

hello

2006-07-01T17:57:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone, i'm home at last. last night was a pretty fun night. gave a few people big shocks. you should have seen their faces. they looked like they've seen a ghost. haha. okay, anyway i'm just bored. gotta go now. see ya later. :D

2006-06-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

I heard a voice through the dischord of a deluge of passers-by. I saw one gaze frozen in time watching me passing by. I swear I'll know your face in the crowd, and I'll hear your voice so loud when you're whispering... Hey unfaithful I will teach you to be stronger, to be stronger. Hey ungraceful I will teach you to fogive one another. Here's my kiss to betray desperate to brush the lips of grace. Do you feel hollow when you think of how I've lied? Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning wrap your loving arms around me. Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning wrap your loving arms around me. Hey unfaithful I will teach you to be stronger, to be stronger. Hey ungraceful I will teach you to forgive one another. Hey unfaithful I will teach you to be stronger, to be stronger. Hey unloving I will love you I will love you I will love you. Jesus I'm ready to come home.

Some will seek forgiveness, others escape - Underoath

well, clearly i haven't blogged in ages.
today jeremy arrived in perth. had a good time with the rest. after some time. or maybe good wasn't good enough. but it's better than none. i've just realised how much singapore has changed. will i be ready to take on all these? i'm hoping so. apparently most of my conversations have hidden history or hidden facts. which kinda sucks. feels like i'm being played. haha. ohwell. it's my english exam tomorrow. i hope i pass. i just realised that i realise alota things everyday and i feel it's important. so for those people who are unconsciously doing it. try to notice it, cause it helps you. so, everyone! i hope you still remember to spend time with me when i'm back. anyway, matt was telling me there was this emokid who joined singapore idol. hahaha! i mean no offence cause i don't know whatever shit is going on in singapore. all i know is what people tell me. so do not blame me for saying something which i hear. but if i'm not wrong he goes to the local gigs in singapore and i believe i have actually seen him before. din think anyone who's active in the local scene will join idol. oh well. shit happens. sorry i was practicing guitar. ah well, you wont even know. ha! aiight. anyway i miss all of you in singapore. i hope it wont be hard trying to fit in for me. see ya later!

Party @ Shen's.

2006-05-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!
well, as you know i'll be going back to singapore on the 7th of july. the date when i'm going back in tentative. But! during this point of time, there will be a party for us to chill out, hang loose and have a great time.

Date : 21st July 06
Day : Friday
Time : Not Confirmed
Venue : Shen's Residence ( Address to be confirmed. ) [ but it's a really big house hahahha ]

Most people are invited! Call shen to check if you're invited, but you should be cool if you just want to have fun and not cause trouble (even if you're not invited; but please at least know a few people in it. hahaha!) Please bring drinks along, cause i hate fucking freeloaders. Bring at least a couple of beers or a bottle of booze if you wanna get drunk. Share if possible. Be considerate about the alcohol, if it's not yours respect the owner's share. If you don't wanna bring alcohol, don't expect any alcohol for free, but you can bring chips or snacks. Just have a good time. There will be a jacuzzi so get ready to get wet! Catch up with each other, have fun and stay outta trouble. Altho i'm not even legal. haha!

Further details will be out soon. Keep checking for updates.

Done by: Zac & Nigel
Get pissed/smashed like me up there! hahaha!

2006-04-22T00:39:00.000+08:00

have you ever had a moment of silence, so quiet that your eye sight goes blurry?
everything sounded too strange to understand. you ever thought about how quiet moments actually gave you really good reflection time? sometimes you reflect about nothing, sometimes you reflect about something that impacts you the most. honestly, i don't have much to reflect about. maybe about my actions in the past, but i hardly think of them because i don't want to relive them. everyone has their scars. thats the line that kicked me in the behind really hard. maybe i just want to let you know, if you have a scar, a painful memory of the past. you're not the only one. and it's not wrong to leave it behind. maybe it's best you leave it behind. you know, i feel really thankful. because i have had a lota second chances, maybe way too many for someone like me. i've made big big mistakes even tho i've only lived a mere 16 and a half years. and presently, i'm having my probably 23rd second chance. but this is up till date, yet the biggest second chance. a new life, with new friends, new everything. but i'll tell you one thing. there are some things i hold on to that i will never let go. my family, friends, God and of course my interests (4th avenue). i am thankful i'm at a whole new place to start a whole new life, being me. you know, it's only when you open up to different people will you find out whether you are being the real you and how people think of the real you. theres this line in the bible which i can't really remember how it goes. but i really liked the concept of it. it went something like. when you do something, okay wait. i remember. whatever your right hand does, make sure your left hand doesnt know. and it's meaning is, whatever good you do, there is no need of proclaiming it. and i have ever had the two voices in my head believe it or not. one telling me, just tell it to him infront of them all so they will think you're nice. and the other saying, maybe i'll just do it so he doesn't have too many things to do at a time. what i chose i will keep to myself. and believe it or not, i've just used the concept right now. contradicting myself. i don't know who will read this, but since it's a diary, i'm just gonna write. or type. well, zac isnt home right now. he's out with a friend. it's 12:51am. it's been a really boring school holiday so far. i only have work to keep me company, i've only been to the beach a few times and havent really hung out with my friends here. i just still find it really hard to do it. it's a total new culture and all. i'm just trying to do what everyone is trying to do. you ask me what is that. i'll tell you. it's called fitting in. well, everyone tries to fit in. or else you'll be alone. and left to be mocked. i don't know where is the next sentence im gonna type out gonna lead me to. i'm just typing everything that is coming out of my brain right now.i'm really happy for some of my friends. they found their happiness. and at the same time some have lost theirs, and i'm feeling for them too. you know what people who migrate here say? the first few nights of your stay here, you will hear a long sharp sound in your head. and it will be there for the rest of the night until you get used to it. wanna know what sound is that? it's called silence. silence so quiet your head makes you think you hear something. sorry about that. went to read my msgs from msn. just found out my friend has a website for his clothing line, with a new name.i'm proud of him and wheres he's come to. you wanna know what makes you cool? well i want to also. and i'm gonna find out. you know, about 30 mins ago i was talking to my parents. about my plans for my future, honestly speaking i'm kinda shocked that i would have to think about it so quick. i'm growing up already. for god's sake, i'm not 13 anymore. but i wished i was. anyway, we talked alot and we talked about when i was young. i know i still have a little memory of when i was about a year old. my dad came home from badminton and i was in my little baby roller things. and he walked to the kitchen so i kicked my way there to see him. and from the living room i rolled in the thing to the kitchen, dropping a lil step down into the kitchen floor. he smiled at me, he was drinking his water. i tried going back into th eliving room. but i couldn't get up the little step. and he carried me to the living room. it doesnt seem like its a big deal. but it's so important to me, this little memory. i love my dad so much, sometimes i seem to be neglecting him and his health. i'm afraid to lose him and my mum. there was once my dad went overseas for a business trip. i grabbed a photo of him and i, he was holding me in the photo while we were on this boat afraid i would fall over. i cried to sleep holding the photo in my hand. sometimes i feel i take for granted to many things. sometimes i feel i take everything for granted. and i'm sorry to those i've taken for granted. how do you end a thought like that. i mean, how do you get a perfect ending? i don't know how to do one. well. END.

love
nigel

thanks for reading & listening.
means alot.

FUNERAL FOR A FRIEND KICKS ASS!

2006-04-08T13:28:00.000+08:00

hello everyone,
i feel very very happy and satisfied now.
let the pictures talk.

hahahahhaa BEAT THAT! matt davies and gareth davies signed my jeans! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! FUCKIN AWESOME MATE!

AND NOW! THE BIGGEST JOKE OF THE WEEK!

LOOK AT HIM SMILING! HAHAHAHAHA! OMG! HAHAHAHA! HE DOESNT EVEN KNOW THEM!

and i won't close my eyes, till i understand or go blind.

2006-03-22T14:37:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! sorry i having been updating much.
i just wanna say i miss you all heaps. anyway, donn i'm sorry i don't reply you. i'm left with too little credit to reply you. and it's hard for me to get credit cause i gotta earn it. and this friday is 4th avenue's gig! ahhhh. i wanna go! haha, will you go with me? (not you donn, i mean other people) hahaha. anyway, i've been fine and i'm coping well with school. tell you the truth i've found some friends to play in a band. hahaha. and you know what! they wanna play hand of blood. ahh man. and i'm playing bass + vox. i'm gonna be nan! haha. anyway, you have no idea how much i miss jamming and performing and MY FRIENDS. ahhh. argh! good luck for the gig guys! oh, JILL. see! i updated my blog. hahahahaha! okay. i guess i have nothing much else to say. i'll see you online when i see you. :D take care! love ya all!

love
nigelly

sigh

2006-03-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

have you ever had two different feelings, both in the heart and in the mind. but you don't know which belongs to which and you don't know which to follow? sorry for not blogging for so long. i've just been to damn lazy. anyway, today some family friends came to live with us for awhile. and zac is here already. but apparantly he's at david's house now. so it's me alone tonight. yay! i've got a keyboard already! i borrowed it from kassian. so yea. haha and i've learnt how to play the intro for 3 different songs. not bad. ah well. you know, sometimes i hardly even get to communicate to anyone in singapore and it's so hard to juggle 2 different worlds i own. i have a world i never wanna lose, and i have a world i'm working hard to build. it's so hard, but i seem to be coping. but it takes two hands to clap. anyway, i'm working at KFC now. so yea, i've been packing burgers like crazy! bloody hell. it can get really busy. i'm sick of typing. see you again soon. (: TAKE CARE! I LOVE YOU ALL!

love
nigelly.

so everybody wants kung fu fighting.

2006-02-25T12:52:00.000+08:00

hello there my dear readers! haha.
well it's been like 18 days since i last updated so yea. sorry about that. anyway. 3 days ago was my dad's 50th. so yea i decided to draw him something that he HAS the keep for the rest of his life.

Hah, yea. you can laugh all you want but i still think it's the best picture i ever drew for someone. hahahaha! so how have you been? i've been fine thank you. it's hard to say, but i've been coping quite well actually. so yea! i just miss you guys so much. the feeling of wanting to do something but you just cant. what i mean is jamming. hahaha. OH OH! and my school uniform a.k.a macdonalds uniform, i'm sorry but i'll post it up soon. i haven't even taken a picture of it. so yes, please be patient! haha okay. i'm gonna go eat my lunch now. and then get ready for my interview at kfc. wish me luck! :D

Love

Nigelly!

how have you been mister and mrs.

2006-02-07T17:34:00.000+08:00

good evening. it has been rather smooth going for me. so stop thinking im not. i mean if you even do in the first place. care about your lives! haha. it's your first priority. i need something. it's called my old friends. haha! I GOD DAMN HELL MISS YOU GUYS! and to tell you guys the truth. our friendship.. i'll defend it as long as i live. :D

LOVE
NIGELLY!

FUCK

2006-02-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

sorry i just woke up and i feel fucking pissed. for no reason also.
its just, i've gotta start making friends and all that again. you know what i mean?
in singapore it's easier, even if you make new friends, you can tell who are who, the good the bad, the popular and the not so popular. here eveyrone looks the same. and i got no fucking idea of their history. and i feel so fragile in this environment. i just wished everyone in singapore is in my school now la. like for example, currently i am friends with one of the coolest guys in school (ijustfoundout) and im with the school's not so popular girl. like what the hell am i gonna do la! FUCK. sorry. when you just wake up you feel very grumpy. thats how i feel now. ARGH. if im in singapore now, i wanna go jam and scream everything out. I WANNA JAM LA. you know if i was blind i wouldn't mind being in the school. AIYA IM TALKING NONSENSE.

song of the day : nigel - i wanna kill myself

and its the weekends. and it doesnt feel like TGIF to me. -.- it should be. FIF. FUCK IT'S FRIDAY. now what am i gonna do. no friends. stay at home minesweeper all day.

HELLO! i feel better now. :D
well if you're thinking i did the top part and this part at diff times nope. its like straight after. hahaha. i just had to trash it all out. i miss ya all. (: oh and tonight nat's band is play. GOOD LUCK YOU ALL! i guess their set is over but yea. YOU GUYS ROCK! :D

Love
NIGELLY

it sizzles

2006-02-01T17:04:00.000+08:00

first day of school wasnt that bad after all. i made a few friends. saw ppl who looks like clones from singapore. hahaha. some of the ppl i know from singapore looks like them, or rather they look like my friends from singapore. hahaha. but one things for sure, the girls here are sizzling hot! my gosh. hahah. can you imagine? my art and design class, there are more girls than guys. then i met this bunch of dudes who are in a band in school. and they jam in school for crying out loud. the school has 2 drum sets, 4 guitars and 2 basses. but still! wah lao. at the beginning, when they split us into advocate groups. infront of me were hot chicks, behind of me were hot chicks. but my row. -.- one fat girl next to me and a few others on the row. LOSER ROW. hahaha. who cares. oh well, even though they're hot doesnt mean anything. doubt i'll even get to talk to them. hahahaha. imma shy boy. altho one did talk to me. :D hahaa! okay la. i gotta go and do some drawing although i cant draw to save my life. its shading somemore. omg and all my shadings look like nonsense. ahahahaha. everyone in class is just gonna laugh at me la. die die die. okay. i'll post up a picture of me in my uniform tml k? so be patient! and wait! haaha. okay ciao! take care, i love ya all!

Love
NIGELLY!

2 days 2 days!

2006-01-30T15:24:00.000+08:00

helloeveryone! firstly happy cny! haha. :D i collect 2 ang baos. like whoa! hahahaha. ka na sai! so how have all of you been? i've been okay.. trying to survive. and schools starting in 2 days! cannot wait la cannto wait! but im very scared. hahha. gotta start making friends from anew. very troublesome! arghh. gotta pray hard man. and yesterday went fishing. fwah, the fishes my parents caught are like humongous. but unfortunately i caught all the small pieces of shit. altho i was close to catching a big one. was about to bring him up onto the jetty then he bit off. WASTED! haha. Tailor somemore. good fight. it was about 30cm long. this summer is really weird. the temperatures are like 20+ only. usually 30+ 40. oh well. good for me. hahaha. i prefer this weather. altho sometimes cold. AND I'VE BEEN DRIVING ALOT! woohoo. it's really fun. hahhaha. my dad always tell me to drive. unless long distance must go on freeway or at night. well i cannto go on freeways and in the boundaries of King's Park. hahahaha. dunno why. oh well! okay la. that's all! i love ya all! :D take care fo yourselves k?

LOVE
NIGELLY!

school starts in 5 days

2006-01-27T15:12:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!
school starts in 5 days! haha. i dunno how im feeling but i'll be fine! :D

will you seat with me?
will your heart beat faster than mine?
watching the stars with you
nothing beats the chemistry
i'll pick a flower for you
but you'll keep it forever
you smell so good
everything seems to be so pleasant
until.....

i see kingkong.
well you can't blame me.
it's in front of me.
i have a king kong cube.
from some cereal box.

well.
what will you do if you find me
what will you do if i sing for you
what will you do if i ask you out
what will you do if i hold your hand
what will you do if i kiss you on your nose
what will you do if stupid people on msn keep bugging you while you're blogging

damn! hold on.

just tell me, what will you do if i forget you?

what will you do if i grab the wrong hand and run away?

well i would be WHAT THE FUCK?!

i stand erected jealous for this.
hahahah thats what i heard from cute without the e.

oh and yesterday only did i learn whats the real meaning of
"there is no 'I' in team" hahahaha! while watching one tree hill.
gosh i feel so dumb. for other dumb dumbs like me, it means
in a team only teamwork, no solos. :D

hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
i know you well enough to know you never loved me

and all of this is all your fault.

yea after this is the i stand erected thingy. hahaha.
actually its i stand WRECKED and jealous. hahaha.

Love

NIGELLY!

inhidings rocks!

2006-01-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

HELLO! INHIDINGS IS A DAMN GOOD BAND! HAHAHA. I LOVE THEIR ORIGINALS! GO NIGEL GO! HAHA! its been a month, and i havent seen the video of 4th ave at rocking xmas. haha. doh! i need to have a peek at it la! oh, and mummy is coming home tonight. she will touch down at midnight. i wish i can travel like her. i miss my friends and all. i wanna see them. i wanna hang out with them. i miss them! anyway, the last few days i havent been really in a good mood. but its gonna pass! :D haha. LET THE GOOD TIMES ROLL! i cannto wait for mylaptop la. my mummy say end of feb then can get. sian. means must wait for zac to come then he can bring for me. but i'll be damn happy by then. double happiness. hahaha. zac and laptop. SHIOK LA! anyway stacey is goingback soon. sian. but she's coming back after zac i think. dunno la. AHHH!

LOVE
NIGELLY

2006-01-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

Another day left waiting, Alone in my room with no calls from you. So i call you up, but you let me down, Falling down around everyone except yourself.

the concept of screaming till your veins burst.

the bled - sound of sulfur

hi

2006-01-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

today was fishing at mandurah. the end.

LOVE
NIGELLY!

day out at freo with stacey!

2006-01-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! sorry i din update for the past few days. i just had nothing to say. hahaha. well today i went to fremantle with stacey and her friend. we went for some fish and chips, they have very good fish and chips, very famous place. and then after that went to look for somewhere to sit down and have a drink or two. yeap. was quite chill out la. but it was freezing like mad. hahahah. the wind is so bloody strong gosh. and i forgot to bring my jacket. and so did stace. well tml im going to carousel, i cant wait for school to start. another 11 days? haha. ithink so. TOMORROW IS MY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! SO FAST! HAHAHA! now i don't know what to say la. i think from today onwards i wont be very regular with updating my blog. im sorry. just, no thrill anymore. haha. im leading a too boring life to talk about. trust me. haha. alright see ya all soon! AND, I'VE DECIDED. I WILL TELL YOU ALL WHEN IM GONNA COME BACK. ONLY WHEN I HAVE CONFIRMED THE DATE AND ALL LA. SO DON'T WORY. I WILL SAY. :D GOOD NIGHT! TAKE CARE AND I LOVE YA ALL!

LOVE
NIGELLY!

sorry

2006-01-17T13:09:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! sorry i din blog yesterday. cause of some bitch hogging on to the computer. thank god she's gone. fucking irritating. always judging me. oh well. now my life is back to normal! hahaah. YESTERDAY I BOUGHT MY SCHOOL BOOKS! wah its damn cool la. alota stuff you don't see in singapore. haha. ohohohohoh! i cut my hair last night. hahahaha. i shaved the sides. now i look like some ah beng. gosh. anyway, thank you for all the tags everyone have been leaving for me. they mean alot to me :D well it's good to know you still have people there who bother about your life. AND I BOTHER ABOUT YOURS TOO! I DON'T CARE IF IMMA NAG OR IRRITANT! thank god for music. hahaha. just felt like saying that. anyway, alota people in singapore are feeling really fucked up or sad. why! please don't be. :D i think i've lost my skill of cheering ppl up already la. but still. STAY HAPPY! okay let me tell you something la, theres this uncle who is also migrating here, he used to be my mum's supervisor. he's damn fucking funny. hahaha. so we were fishing, then he doesnt' really know how to fish la. AND THEN HIS ACTIONS ALL DMAN FUNNY. wah piang! hahahahaha. so i asked him. "so uncle paul, is this your first time fishing?" then he said. "erm, yes but i also fish, but when i go fishing i catch alot of fishes." then i ask him, "how? where?" then he said, "THE MARKET LA!" HAHAHAHA! WAH LAO. and then when i taught him how to cast already. he tell me he gonna catch a baracuda for me. HAHA! DON'T EVEN HAVE THE FISH THERE! then what he say to catch smoked salmon must use a cigarette bud as the bait. wah piang. it sounds lame la, but when he says it its damn funny. hahahaha. once again. i miss jamming. ahhhh! okay la, enough here. i'll try to stay online as long as i can. :D see ya! take care and i miss and love you! :D

Love
NIGELLY!

dreams?

2006-01-15T14:36:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!
well today i woke up rather late cause i had this dream. and i so wanted it to continue la. but i keep waking up. cause i had to pee. hahahhaah! well i dreamt of this girl. i dunno but somehow in that dream i was trying to get her. chase her i mean. and it seemed to work out quite fine. then when it came to a point where i was touching her hand i woke up again and couldnt get back to sleep. wah, how i wished it could happen in real life. dammit. but oh well. she's in singapore and im here. aiya but there are other complications too. who cares. all i know was it was worth the moment of dreams. I WANT AGAIN! anyway sorry yesterday i din post anything. was in a foul mood for half the day. hahaha. well after i woke up i came to the com awhile then went to bathe. then came back after bathing to play cs. and i cant believe it, till now when im typing thsi post out. i'm still thinking of the dream. i dunno if its a sign or something but. IM BEING DUMB! okay. stop. its times like this i need someone to talk to. or rather. for me i'd prefer just having a friend next to me and sit down with me. even if we don't talk. i'd feelbetter. serious. i dunno why im like that. oh well. hahahhaah i cant wait for school to start!! i cannot wait i cannot wait i cannot wait! there seems to be a "rock" music section in the school and and and.. HAHA MY CLASS HAS HOT CHICKS I SWEAR! hahahahaha. i saw them on the magazine. swee la. but i mean, whats the big deal. i dare not talk to them anyways. ahaha imma shy boy, i dare not talk to girls. i scared when i look at them they come and ask me why am i looking at them then i will me dumbfounded and run away. but they're still hot la. i need friends la. i feel like a loner. the only friend i have is jason my neighbour. he's 7yearsold. now you're doing the waltz with your murderer. i miss the hardcore scene la. i need gigs. OH OH OH! IN APRIL I CAN CATCH FFAF! HAHAHAHA! IM GOING WITH AVERY. 47 BUCKS PER TIX. NEED TO BOOK SIA. SHIOK LA. FUNERAL FOR A FRIEND LA! hahahahaa. okokokokokokokok. i'll stop here. nothing to say anyways. see ya! take care i love ya all!

Love
NIGELLY

fishing!

2006-01-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! today i went fishing for the whole day. gosh, just got back from fishing, dinner and watching a good fight. woohoo. haha, today went to fishing at about 4 like that. then caught very few fishes. not very good day. haha. but alot of puffer fish. oh my god. i wanna smack them all sia. they bite then don't wanna let go. some even chew off the whoole hook. hahaha. retards! my dad had like 23589763298312 of them. he lost 4 hooks to pufferfishes. and i lost 1 to a bloody huge herring that managed to escape. bastard. haha. so after fishing, we went to another spot to check out the place. and maybe im going again tml. then we saw this guy who had a great great fight with a sting ray. oh my gosh! damn good sia the fight. wah damn fun!! :D hahaha. he was fighting the fish for like half an hour or so. he almost reeled it back. but in the end the sting ray after so long managed to escape. hahahahahha and one part. DAMN CUTE OMG! THE STING RAY FROM NEAR THE JETTY HE SWIM OUT AND I SAW THE LINE GOING OUTWARDS. HAHAHAHAHA! THEN WHEN REACH THE MAXIMUM IT CAN SWIM IT SWIM BACK! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! AND IT LIKE JUMPED OUT OF THE WATER FOR AIR OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT SIA. DAMN NICE! then after the sting ray escaped. it was fucking beautiful! it flapped its wings in the water so magnificently la. so swiftly so beautiful. hahaha. then after that we went to get some fish and chips. my gosh. the fish and chips here are bloody good. haha. then after that came home. about 10. now on the com! :D someone please call me tonight. save this little loner here. haha. cherios! i love you! (:

LOVE
NIGELLY!

tv and computer has taken over me!

2006-01-12T19:19:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!
i'm here to officially declare im a tv and computer freak. oh my god. thats all i do, can you imgaine it? first everyday i use the computer till about 9, then my dad uses the com to talk to my mum. then i will go outside to the living room and watch tv, this is a routine i'm talking about here. then after he finishes, usually about 11pm, i'll come back and use awhile and go out to watch tv all the way till 2am in the morning. hoping someone would call me and talk to me. :D and recently i've been downloading movies onto my com and watching them. i feel so, lifeless now that i say it out. hahahaha! anyway, im really happy for jeremy whom a private school has accepted him. i hope he does well! and jem! everyone is supporting you alright! so do your best! :D imma one tree hill maniac. trust me. im begging season 3 comes out faster. its only tml episode 10 comes out and im dying already!! wth! okok. im going for dinner. take care ya all! i love you! :D

LOVE
NIGELLY!

omgomgomg

2006-01-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

hello everyone i only got 3 mins to type this post out so don't blame me if i have any typo errors or anything. i wanna make it seem like i update daily. hahahah. okay today i went out on my bike to the nearest shopping mall to my house its called livingston shopping centre and i went to apply for jobs at 3 different places. video ezy, Subway and hungry jacks. hoping i will get a job from any of these or the already applied for eeagle boys pizza place. gosh i wish i can get that job. i love baking piozzas la. my gosh! omgomgomgomgomg i only have 2 mins left. and i cant tink of what to type. oh shit now 1. anyways today donna dn kenneth went over to my house to fgrab some things. ask them what they are la. i wish i could step into my house in singapore again too. okay im gonna stop now. good bye take care i love you!

LOVE

NIGELLY

day of reflection

2006-01-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

well hello again.
today was a day i realised alota things. its not emo but its really a day of reflection. first of all, i woke up today at like 9am to go to an aged home called Little Sisters Of The Poor. the place is beautiful with these magnificent old folks. they are just great. so today i went to do some community service with my dad at the home. and i was doing some vaccuming and whilst doing that, i kept thinking. my dad told me to use the one with the big end and can save time. but i decided to use a small one with a brush. perfection takes time. but theres nothing perfect, just close. so i was vaccuming the carpet and this phrase hit me, "there are six billion people in this world, but sometimes you only need one." it seems to hold meaning to me. but when i come to think of it, i haven't reached a stage where i have found this one person. but if you have, i give you my blessings. then today after helping out at the home. i felt really satisfied with myself. first i could do some reflecting, and second im satisfying myself morally. it's good to do some charity work. then i watched one tree hill when i got back. season 3 all the way to episode 9. its really good. just like the main character, chad michael murray, he likes reflecting and so do i. he always gets good phrases. bastard. well, theres another one. "you can never run away from your weakness, the only thing you can do is fight it." inspiring. and the other phrase i got it from the replacements, the matrix guy, i forgot his name. "quick sand. when you're in trouble everything seems to be going wrong, just like you're sinking in like quick sand. but if you stay calm, an escape plan will come your way." i love that phrase. it keeps me going really well. hah. well, today aint some lame ass entry that makes ppl laugh or pictures of really retarded me. i just felt like typing all these out. now i know, you only lose things only when you let it slip. even a pint of hope left in your dark lifeless box, you can tear a hole big enough for light to come in with the help of your supporting pillars. friends and family alike. good over evil. light over darkness. for me, love over life.

once again, the reassurance of the heart. i love you all.

Love

NIGELLY

adouhawjdacmskdfg

2006-01-09T14:13:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! haha sorry for not posting yesterday. but i went fishing yesterday! it was so fun! my dad caught two swordfishes. hahahhaha and i caught like 4 herrings. so cool! and one day we're going deep sea fishing. cannot wait. woohoo. well sounds like im having fun right? ahah, well maybe when all of you are here with me. it'll be heaven. (: okay la. enough of yesterday.
now for today. hahaha i took a few pictures. its memories la. so enjoy.

The shelf that keeps me sane. i call it the sanity shelf.

A present from the guys on the night before i left. i still keep it in my room. just under my shelf if you can see from the previous picture. (:

hahahaha! this is the greeners, to those that don't like us. im sorry, but please keep your comments to yourself. (:

The words that put me to sleep almost everynight.

well i call this salvation corner. this is what makes me feel alive, makes me feel alive.

The trickery three. and me. haha. the night of the suprise party. how could i not have seen it coming! what the hell. hahahaha. but good job guys. :D

okay, i guess its time to stop. haha. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH OKAY! :D

LOVE
NIGELLY!

i'm melting, in your eyes.

2006-01-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

Seem to stop my breathMy head on your chestWaiting to cave inFrom the bottom of myHear your voice againCould we dim the sunAnd wonder where we've beenMaybe you and me So kiss me like you didMy heart stopped beatingSuch a softer sin(I'm melting, I'm melting)In your eyesI lost my placeCould stay a whileAnd I'm meltingIn your eyesLike my first timeThat I caught fireJust stay with meLay with meNowNever caught my breathEvery second I'm without you I'm a messEven though each otherTrust these words are stowedMy cuts are healingLearning how to loveI'm melting (I'm melting)In your eyesI lost my placeCould stay a whileAnd I'm meltingIn your eyesLike my first timeThat I caught fireJust stay with meLay with me(Stay with me lay with me now)You could stay and watch me fallAnd of course I'd ask for helpJust stay with me nowTake my handWe could take our handsI'll stay in bed and just make love that's allJust stay with me nowI'm melting (I'm melting)In your eyesI lost my placeCould stay a whileand I'm meltingIn your eyesLike my first timeThat I caught fireJust stay with meLay with meIn your eyesI lost my placeCould stay a whileand I'm meltingIn your eyesLike my first timeThat I caught fireJust stay with me lay with me (Stay with me, lay with me)In your eyesLets sleep till the sun burns outI'm melting in your eyes (I'm melting in your eyes)Lets leave down the the sunburns ofI'm melting in your eyes

The Used - I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes)

my my. it's a nice song. HELLO EVERYONE!
i feel like i've lost my place.
anyway! DONNS BIRTHDAY IS COMING! ITS IN AN HOUR AND 3 MINS! AND SHE TOLD ME TO WISH HER AT MIDNIGHT. BUT I'LL TRY. IF SHE ASK WHY I LATE. I JUST SAY PERTH AND SINGAPORE GOT A FEW MINS DIFFERENCE. HAHAHAHAHAHA! THEY'RE GONNA BE AT GREEN CELEBRATING. NOT FAIR. I WISH I COULD BE THERE! DOH. I GUESS MY THIS YEAR'S BIRTHDAY WILL BE HERE IN AUSTRALIA. THANK GOD ITS 17. IF ITS LIKE 16 OR 18 I'LL JUMP DOWN. HAHAHAHA. BUT COME TO THINK OF IT. MY 18 BIRTHDAY I THINK I'LL JUMP DOWN ALREADY. HAHA.

OH, THERES THIS TV SHOW I WAS WATCHING! DAMN NICE LA. ITS CALLED BLURRED. HAHAHAHHA. ITS SERIOUSLY HILARIOUS AND LUSTFUL. MY GOSH. AUSTRALIA'S TV AINT THAT BAD ACTUALLY. AHAHHAHA.

OH AND I SAW THIS PHRASE ON TV, ITS MEANING IS SO FRUITFUL AND I LOVE IT.
"ABSENCE MAKE THE HEART GROW FONDER."
IT'S A GOOD PHRASE I'D SAY. OKAY GOING TO DO SOMETHING NOW, I DUNNO WHAT ALSO LA. SO BORING. HAHAHAH JUMP DOWN. OKAY BYEBYE! TAKE CARE I LOVE YOU ALL!

LOVE
NIGELLY!

ITS STILL SO HOT! OH MY GOD.

2006-01-06T18:34:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!
hahaha its so bloody hot today gosh. 37 degrees. the plants outside my house are like BROWN. hahahahaha! CHAO TA! oh ya, you know the clouds here are magnificent man. they looks so beautiful. i'm like a full time cloud admirer. hahahahaha. LET ME SHOW YOU A PICTURE I RECEIVED YESTERDAY! HAHAHAHAHA!

HAHAHA OKAY THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO SAY! SCOTT LOOKS LIKE A BEAR FROM THE SHOW BROTHER BEAR. HAHAHAHAHA AND KENNETH LOOKS LIKE G.I. JANE. HAHAHAHAHAHA! AND SHAUN ANDY. AS USUAL LA HE LOOKS LIKE AN ALIEN! HAHAHAHAHAHA OH MY GOD. HAHAHAHA! TRUST THEM TO CARRY A KNIFE. GOSH. WHAT A CONTRADICTING PICTURE! HAHAHAHAH. MAYBE EXCEPT KENNETH. G.I. JANE. HAHAHAHA. KKB ALL THE WAY!

okay enough of that la. later they wanna kill me all. hahahahahaha!

.... receiving transmission ....

ET GO HOME!! ET GO HOME!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA *BANG*! ET DIE GO HELL! HAHAHA!

sorry shaun andy, just have to do that la. BUT ET DOESNT DIE! HE SUDDENLY SITS UP AND LOOKS AT ME WITH A GLARING STARE! THEN HE RUNS AT ME IN A ROBOT MANNER! TERMINATOR! TE DA DUM TE DA! RUN RUN RUN! HAHAHAHAHA! shaun andy, you're the best la. hahahahahahahahaha.

OKAY NOW A SEXY PICTURE! HAHAHA!

CAN YOU SEE THAT SEXY POSE? OMG! HEART MELT HEART MELT. anyway i love my purple boxers. hahahahaha. my parents were plucking the peaches from our tree. wah damn sweet sia the peach. damn good! woohooo!

HAHAHA OKAY NOW! A NEVER SEEN BEFORE SHOT BEHIND THE SCENES OF FOURTH AVENUE. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. OH MY GOD. KENNETH AND SHAUN PLEASE DON'T SCOLD ME. HAHAHA I JUST CANNOT TAHAN EVERYTIME I SEE IT. HAHAHA HAVE TO SHARE!

HAHAHAHA OKAY LAUGH ALL YOU WANT! HAHAHAHAH THIS IS CALLED KENNETHS TRADEMARK RETARDED FACE. HAHAHAHA!

OKAY ITS TIME FOR DINNER LA! CANNOT TAHAN! VERY HUNGRY! I'LL SEE YOU ALL SOON! TAKE CARE OKAY! ILOVEEVERYONEOFYOU! (:

LOVE

NIGELLY!

it's getting so bloody hot oh my god!

2006-01-05T19:57:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! :D
wah today is really really hot. gosh. the temperature is like 34 deg cel. hahaha so high sia! the whole day im like blasting the fan at full into my face but i still feel hot. gosh. haha, anyway today daddy cooked dinner! wah not bad man. hahahha first time he cook for me and it tasted much better than i expected. hahahaha. so today i din really do much la. sat down at the computer and chat awhile here and there. HAHA THEN LATER ON I DOWNLOADED CS AGAIN AND START PLAYING AGAIN! HAHAHAHA! and today i made a new friend! haha, his name is clint and he's like in a band too, but his band broke up and his the guitarist. and HE LISTENS TO SCREAMO AND EMOCORE TOO. WOOHOO! shiok sia. then he said theres this tour coming up in feb and i'm gonna ask him more about it. but he lives in Mandurah, so far away. gosh. HAHAHAHA GUESS WHERE I MET HIM! HAHAHAHAHA WHILE PLAYING CS! HAHAHAHAHA! GOSH! his nickname was fromfirsttolast. then i talked to him and asked him about perth's local scene. hahahaha. he seems to know alot. i hope he's a nice guy. AND YES I HAVENT MET HIM BEFORE! HAHAHA!

and you know what! omg, tml's temperature is gonna be 37 degress celcius. what the hell! how am i gonna survive with this heat. gosh. im gonna die la! anyway i feel so hot now. i think im gonna take a shower. hahahaha okay! so you come online and talk to me ar! :D see ya all! LOVE YA! and you got no idea how much i miss ya all. (:

LOVE
NIGELLY!

WAH TODAY IS A BUEY TAHAN DAY! hahahahaha! woohooo!

2006-01-04T19:21:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!!! :D
im really really happy today la. okay first my dad and i went to the airport to send mum home ): but she'll come back! haha i was so wishing it was me walking through those gates rather than her. she wants to stay i want to go! DOH! haha. anyway after that we went to town and my dad went to do all the banking shit and all. then we went to this place called Habour Town. wah lao! everything there is retail price! everything is so bloody cheap! hahaha. but i din buy anything. nothing to my liking. but i said it once and i'll say it again. AUSTRALIAS MUSIC SUCKS! i need a taste of the local scene here man. i need to hear screaming on the radio! gosh. cannot tahan! ahhhhh! anyways. after that we went to get my L plate! WOOOHOOOO! then we bought a shaver paack with everything la to cut hair. ITS DAMN BLOODY GOOD! serious! then after that we came back. THEN MY DAD ASK ME WHETHER I WANNA GO TAKE A SPIN AROUND THE NEIGHBOURHOOD! WAH!! IT WAS DAMN FUN LA DRIVING THE CAR! HAHAHAHAH! at first i was getting used to everything turning here and there using signal and all. then after that i tried to do a three point turn. but the cheating way, go into ppls driveway then turn out. hahahah first time i tried quite unsteady. but second time not bad! hahahah. i only went up one small curb once! BEAT THAT LA! hahaha. then got so many roundabouts and all! gosh! then after we even went on to main road. wah quite scary but it was fine! hahah. then now my dad's gonna watch the last DVD and we're gonna return it. and at the same time im gonna go submit my application form. hopefully i can get the job. please pray for me! (: okay okay! im gonna go bathe now! come online and i'll tell you how fun driving is. hahahahahha! wah lao, my father think he ang mo sia. can walk around the house in underwear all. somemore its not boxers. its the UNDERWEAR TYPE! he's turning white! OKAY IM GOING TO BATHE NOW! SEE YA ALL! TAKE CARE! I LOVE YOU ALL! AND I MISS YOU ALL LIKE CRAZY!

LOVE
NIGELLY!

PS: my dad wanted to buy this plant la that another house near my area has. then he cannot find. so i told him. at night when everyone sleep we go dig out and plant at our house la. HAHAHA! HE SCOLD ME SIA! SAY ITS THEFT! CANNOT! then i told him jus joking only. RELAX! hahahahahahahaha!

today was quite a good day!

2006-01-03T17:06:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
IM SO HAPPY TODAY :D HAHA! FIRST OF ALL TODAY I WENT TO DO MY DRIVERS LICENSE THEORY TEST. AND I PASSED! 28 OUT OF 30! HAHA YAAY! THE MINIMUM WAS 25! AND ACTUALLY I COULD GO AND DRIVE NOW WITH MY DAD NEXT TO ME BUT THEN WE FORGOT TO BUY THE L PLATE. CANNOT DRIVE YET! OH AND I APPLIED FOR A JOB AT EAGLE BOYS! WEEE! I HOPE THEY EMPLOY ME. THERE WERE ONLY 2 WORKERS IN THE PLACE WHEN I WENT IN. BUT ALSO NO CUSTOMERS. HOW HOW HOW! HAHHA NVM I HOPE I CAN GET THE JOB! WEAR PINK POLO TEES! HAHAH! I WANNA DRIVE SOON! ANYWAY TOMORROW MY MUM'S GOING BACK TO SINGAPORE. OH HOW I WISH I COULD BE IN HER POSITION! HAHA. THERE ARE PPL I WANNA SEE AND WANNA MEET. I HEARD KENNETH AND SCOTT ARE BALD! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! I HAVE TO SEE MAN! I DON'T CARE! HAHA! OKOK I GOTTA GO. VERY THIRSTY. I'LL SEE YOU ONLINE IF YOU ARE COMING ONLINE! :D PLEASE ADD ME AND TALK TO ME IF YOU DON'T HAVE MY MSN CONTACT. IT'S amplify_navy35@hotmail.com SO PLEASE DO COME AND TALK TO ME! I'M DEAD BORED! HAHA :D

LOVE
NIGELLY!

this entry is supposed to be for 2nd jan la! aiya who cares.

2006-01-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

HELLO I FORGOT TO SAY SOMETHING JUST NO. OR RATHE RIT HAPPENED AFTER I BLOGGED. HAHAHHA OKAY. I WAS BATHING, THEN WHEN I FINISHED THERE WAS THIS HUMONGOUS FLY IN THE TOILET. SO I FASTER CLOSE THE DOOR AND HEADED TO GRAB MY FLY SWATTER. AND CNA YOU BELIEVE IN. I HAD A 10MIN DUEL WITH THAT PIECE OF SHIT FLY. HAHAHAHHAA I TRIPPED AND FELL LIKE TWICE AND I KICKED THE WEIGHING MACHINE ALL. WAH. IT WAS THEN I KNEW THIS FLY IS IN FOR IT. THEN WHEN I SAW THE PERFECT CHANCE I TOOK A SWING AND HIT THE FLY DEAD CENTRE! HAHAHAHHA IT FLEW INTO THE WALL AND DIED STRAIGHT AWAY. AT FIRST HE WAS GETTING BURNED BY GOING ONTO THE LIGHT. STUPID SHIT ASS. THEN AFTER THAT. I WAS DAMN HAPPY I KILLED IT. I KEPT HITTING IT EVEN THOOUGH ITS DEAD SAYING THATS FOR PEEPING AT ME YOU SHIT HEAD! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA! OKOK TML, OR RATHER LATER IM GOING TO THIS PIZZA SHOP CALLED EAGLE BOYS TO GET A JOB. HOPEFULLY I CAN GET. HAHA I WNANA BECOME A PIZZA BOY AND GUESS WHAT. THE UNIFORM IS PINK. HAHAHHA! GAY AH BENG SHIT ASS CHINA PIANG BOOO. OKOK BYEBYE!

LOVE
NIGELLY!

this has got to be the most boring day of my life.

2006-01-02T17:16:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!
its the 2nd of january and its the day before my friends in singapore start school. i'd like to pray for claire because she's going to jc tomorrow. and i hope god will grant her the strength to strive in her jc life. and to my classmates of 4N2 in year 2005. i'll pray that you all will score well for O levels and stop playing a fool! hahaha. and all the other 4N classes. i'll pray for ya all. (:

anyway. today i woke up at 12. so many ppl came over and i dunno for what reason or occasion. but its damn bloody boring. after lunch i spent the rest of the time on the computer till about 30 mins ago. hahahah you cannot imagine what i did in the last 30 mins before i came online. hahahha!

i call it. KUNG POW FLY SWATTING! HAHAHAH! I KILLED LIKE 14 FLIES TO BE EXACT! THEY ARE DAMN BLOODY IRRITATING SO I SET OUT ON A JOURNEY TO ELIMINATE FLIES THAT DISTURB ME OR ARE IN THE HOUSE. SO BY NOW I GUESS THE HOUSE IS FLY FREE. well. they have big juicy ones and the really scronny ones. hahahhaha. either way i'll kill all. and they got me so irritated that when i wanna kill them i dont like go straight for the splat! i will let it fly in the air, and whack it damn hard and let it hit the wall. hahahahha so if its dies good for him. but if he survives i will cut his wings off. i know its sounds sadistic. but it was nat who gave me the idea. hahahhaha! you cant stop a bored person from doing whatever he wants. hahaha. so i put them all in a box and placed it in the bin. okay fine i din place it in the bin. i threw it in. hahahha. seriously, ever since i came here i've been doing stuff i'd nvr do in singapore. even blogging. hahah. anyway. i wish everyone would come online now. an dsav eme from this boredom. its like. please someone help me, i'm dying here in front of you. Escape Artist Never Dies. thats a classic la.

okay i think i've nothing left to say. oh oh one more thing! HAHAHAH I COMPLETED THE CUSTOM SIZE BIGGEST SIZE WITH 175 MINES IN MINESWEEPER TODAY. WOOHOO! ITS NOT EVERYDAY YOU COMPLETE. HAHAHA! YEA MAN! alright. see you all! take care and i miss everone! i love you all!

Love
NIGELLY!

Day 12

2006-01-01T18:36:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
haha, my new years count down was really really funny and blurred. i was at stacey's house. and we were all waiting for countdown. then you know in singaporethey actually have ppl commencing the countdown? but here the fucking recorded it using different scenes and it had so little life. AND THEN ENDED WITH FAKE FIREWORKS. CB! WHAT THE HELL LA! AND ITS LIKE CHRISTMAS WAS SHIT AND NEW YEAR WAS BLUR AND FUNNY AND EVERYTHING. HAHAHAHAHA! then after the countdown my parents stayed awhile and went home. i stayed over at staceys! hahahaha can you imagine. travis, kyran and i were playing ddarts the whole night. gosh. till like 3am like that and we knocked out. ahahahha! it was fun la in a way. then woke up today and then we played xbox. fun la fun la! haha. i should spend more time with them while the school holidays are still on. WE ARE GOING CYCLING AND WE DON'T CARE. HAHAHA! then we're going fishing and all. aiya. i dunno what else to type. HAPPY NEW YEAR again! oh and. those who arent having the best times of their lives. i'll pray for you okay? you'll be in my prayers! and everyone else. take care and i love you all!
+61421921058 - call me if you're down :D

Love
NIGELLY! :D

Day 10

2005-12-30T23:04:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! (:
today wasnt a really happening day. i was so bored today. hahaha. but today i bought a new magazine! THIS TIME A SKATE MAG! WOOHOO! later im gonna go put it all up in my room. i wish i have a huge poster of THRICE LA! WAH LAO! anyway, today's Mosh06. bloody hell! i wish i was there! hahahha thats why so little ppl online tonight. BUT AARON IS SUPPOSED TO DEDICATE THE WHOLE SET TO ME AND RECORD IT DOWN ON VIDEO AND SEND ME! SO IM GONNA SIT AT HOME AND BE A NICE GUY AND WAIT FOR HIM TO SEND ME! :D tomorrow's new year's eve! and im going to staceys house in the evening tomorrow! for dinner and count down then stay over! at least i won't be staying alone at home. hahaha. aiya. nothing to say already la! SEE YA ALL! BYEBYE! TAKE CARE! :D I LOVE YA ALL!

Love
NIGELLY

Day 9

2005-12-29T20:32:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! hahaha today was a little bit more fun than other days. had a few laughs here and there. OKAY LET ME START! first i woke up really really pissy and was not in a good mood at all la. then after listening to some image of the invisible and red sky. my mood slowly came back. haha. so my dad, mum and i went to this mall. it was huge but boring. i went to the news agency and i bought myself a new magazine! woohoo. shiok sia the magazine. many bands i liked were interviewed. haha. and then after the mall we went to visit my aunt elizabeth who is a nun at the perth little sisters of the poor! way cool isnt it. hahaha! i took quite alot of pictures there. enjoy!

hahah its a clover i plucked form a clover tree!

THE WORK OF THE OLD PPL! ITS RICE! I SWEAR!

THE NEW AGE OLD FOLK HOBBY! CORIDOOR RACING! BUT WITH BRAKES! HAHAHA!

ARENT THE FLOWERS PRETTY!! :D

okay, now the really sad part. sigh.

down that lonely road...

you walk pass the serene cemetry where once beauty stood...

and then you continue walking...

and you bump into...

A HUGE LUMP OF GREEN SHIT! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

well actually its just some plant but it was huge! and the first time i saw it i was like WTH! hahahah that must be some herbivorous dinoosaur's droppings! HAAHA! okok. after this shot we left. then went to buy MY BIKE! WEEEE ITS MY CHRISTMAS PRESENT! HAHA! DAMN SHIOK! the pictures are below! :D with a helmet too! woohoo!

ITS MY CHRISTMAS PRESENT! AND MY DAD SPENT 300 ON IT! WEE. HELMET, CHANGE OD ALUMINIUM PEDALS AND NEW COMFY SEAT! WOOHOO! I LOVE MY DADDY! :D OKAY THATS ALL FOLKS! TAKE CARE AND I LOVE YOU ALL! GOD BLESS YOU!

PS: I JUST FOUND OUT ANTHONY GREEN LEFT SAOSIN. SLOW SIA ME! HAHAHAH!

LOVE

NIGELLY!

Day 8

2005-12-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!
haha how are all of you today! i'm fine AND IM LOOKING AT A BIG FAT PIG ON TV NOW HAHAHAHAH ITS HUMONGOUS! IM WATCHING WITHOUT A PADDLE NOW! :D so today, what i did! erm, i went to this huge shopping mall with my parents. But the thing about this shopping mall is that the shops there are not of any good at all! I SWEAR! i went to the CD shop and all i saw was stupid Hip Hop and other nonsense! I WAS LOOKING FOR SAOSIN OR SOMETHING BUT ALL THEY HAD WERE SELL OUTS! and then went grocery shopping and all AND I BOUGHT BROWNIES MIX! HAHAHA I LOVE BROWNIES! WITH HOT FUDGE AND CHOCOLATE CHIPS THINGY!! too bad you cant come and enjoy it with me! im gonna stuff it with sugar and everything that will make it sweet! woohooo!

OKAY NOW! IM GONNA TALK ABOUT MY DREAM LAST NIGHT! HAHAHAHHAAH!

So, last night i dreamt i was with this girl who was supposedly my girlfriend! then we embarked on a journey on this boat thingy la. then there were like ppl on the boat as in the crew la. just like the kingkong show if you watched. and then we reached this island and we were walkng around! then we reached this house! hahahha and all the boat crew ppl started turning against us. so i had a gun and they killed my girlfriend and i started killing like all of them except the last one. he appeared to be a vampire. hahahahahhaha okok now's the funny part. so he din die even if i shot him. THEN HE TRIED BITING ME! BUT I PLUCKED OUT HIS TEETH. HAHAHHAHAHA IT WAS DAMN HILARIOUS I SWEAR! then he starting moaning and going ahhh ahhh eee eee ooo oooo! dont ask me why! hahahahaha! okay it may not be funny to some of you la. but if you were there to see it you will definitely laugh. hahahha. anyway i don't care whether you're laughing anot right now. hahahhaha im watching without a paddle and its killing me. ahahhahaha! ok la sorry everybody! actually i do care about whether you guys are happy anot. haha. please be okay! i really really wished everyone else in the world will be happy! oh and if you're in singapore and you wanna call me. the number is +61421921058. cause if you're feeling sad or something i can talk to you (: but its free for me! so sorry you will have to pay. bu please call me. i miss all of you! hahah. OKAY! gotta go now! wanna watch tv! see ya all! take care i love ya all!

Love
NIGELLY

Day 7

2005-12-27T18:03:00.000+08:00

A Vacant Affair, 4th Avenue, Sky In Euphoria presents.....
(scroll down stupid!)

NIGEL DRUNK PISSING IN PUNGGOL PARK! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

okay! that was really random, but ya. pardon me! cause im seriously bored today. nothing much happened at all. But in the afternoon before lunch, a priest came over to bless my house. haha so if you're gonna come and stay fret not! :D well i really really miss performing and everything else in singapore. gosh i was looking at the rocking xmas photos! shit man. what a waste i have to come here la. SIAN! so how's everybody? i'm doing okay la. hahaha last night was truth or truth online again! but it din really turn out as fun as the first time! nvm! we shall have more of that! and NAT! MY QUESTIONS ARE COPYRIGHTED OKAY! STOP STEALING! HAHAHHAA! let me show you a picture Ben (CFB Dummer) sent me. he said paul took it. but i taught it was really nice! hahahah!

NICE?! hahhaa wait another one! WALL OF DEATH!

hahaha yea! local scene of singapore man! woohoo!

actually theres even a video la! but im still waiting for martin to send me! argh. i wanna see it badly! really really badly! kc says its damn good! i'll damn hell miss the local scene, the ppl i know and my band! i wanna jam la! aiya, i dunno what to say already. i know! OKAY! YESTERDAY I FORGOT TO SAY THIS BUT YA. ITS DAMN FUNNY! HAHAHHAA! I MEAN TO ME LA! I WAS FISHING, SITTING ON THE EDGE OF THE JETTY, THEN SUDDENLY I SEE WHITE COLOUR LIQUID FALL INTO THE SEA I WAS LIKE WTF! THEN I TURN BEHIND THE PELICAN WAS ABOVE ME SHITTING ON THE LAMP POST! CB! HAHAHAHA LUCKY THE WIND WAS STRONG IT DIN HIT ME. HAHAHA I BET IN HIS HEAD WAS LIKE, SHIT WRONG TIMING! READ THE WIND WRONGLY. HAHAHAHA! THEN ALSO, I CAUGHT THIS YELLOW FISH LA. SO I DECIDED TO GO FOR A BIGGER FISH! THE YELLOW FISH WAS QUITE SMALL. SO I HOOKED IT UP AND CASTED IT INTO THE SEA. THEN THE BLOODY BIRDS GO EAT IT. BLOODY HELL! HAHAHHAHA CAN YOU IMAGINE! PIECE OF.. $#%^#!$@^#

hahahhaa okay thats enough of the funny part already. so yes. i guess thats all la. today was just quite boring. sad thing stacey din come over. she's sick! really badly. so pray for her! :D okok thats all folks!

Cheers!

Love

NIGELLY! :D

Day 6

2005-12-26T13:31:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!
im so tired from fishing today! gosh! but it was fun and worth it! ahahha as y ou can see from below.

WHY DID I CLOSE MY EYES! hahaha or are my eyes just small! doh!

HAHA LOOK AT MY PANTS! the wind was damn bloody strong! I WAS FREEZING! and see those japanese bastards next to me? they caught so many fishes and i caught none at first. luckily later on i managed to catch a few later on! hahah
I caught like 4 sardines and 1 funny looking yellow thingy fishlike fish! my mum caught 1 sardine. my poor dad din catch anything. oh well! hahaha. i am thinking that now i have so much time to take the trouble of posting everyday. but its good for you guys anyway, KAYPO! hahaha but after i get a job or school start i hope i still continue posting! but i doubt pictures will come up anymore. hahaha. im so wishing my hair will grow fast fast now! i wanna have long long hair. then i'll look cool like a rockstar! i wanna be a rockstar! everytime no one's online. BORING! last night was worse. everyone went for the party at pantat's and poor nat and i were left online. DOH! should i write somemore? cause if i don't i dunno what to do after this. hahaha no one online. maybe kenneth but he's bathing and he takes longer than a girl! hahahahha don't get angry kenneth if you read this. or maybe i can play minesweeper after this! YES! but later my eyes will hurt again! or should i go to sleep? i'll grow fat! these few days i've been eating, computering and sleeping non stop. its a routine! i think i've put on like 2 kgs or something. hahaha but my poor house has no weighing machine dammit! my mum told me, "you wanna weigh yourself go to the supermarkets there, if they sell you can weigh for free." DOH! what the hell la. okay fine forget it. i'll just stop here. maybe i'll post something again tonight. see ya all! hope you had a good christmas. well i almost had a not bad christmas. but overall i prefer the other 15 christmases i spent before. okay see ya all! take care and i'll see you soon!

Love,
NIGELLY!

Day 5 - MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY LOVED ONES IN SINGAPORE AND EVERYONE WHO SEES MY BLOG!

2005-12-25T13:52:00.000+08:00

ENJOY!

I CANT MAKE ANY BIGGER SO CLICK TO ENLARGE! WAIT CANNOT CLICK ALSO!PLEASE LOOK AT IT! MERRY CHRISTMAS! TRY TO READ K? IF CANNOT READ I SEND YOU ON MSN! :D

Day 4 - Second Half!

2005-12-24T22:14:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE! IM BACK!
oh and i wanna say one thing. THANK GOD FOR THE SUNNY WEATHER TODAY! shit balls, i woke up freezing my head off. cannot tahan sia! hahahah can you imagine winter? OH WANNA KNOW WHAT I DID TODAY! i did two things that made me past christmas eve day faster!
HAHA! YES I MOWED THE LAWN! WOOHOO!
ITS DAMN FUN OKAY! but must wear long pants. the stupid grass keep hitting my leg so pain! hahahhaa!

HAHA THE BEST GARDENER YOU CAN FIND!
NOT JUST GOOD BUT SEXY! HAHAHA

HAHA SEE! EVEN! WHAT DID I TELL YOU!
( Look at my hat! it's to chase those stupid mosquitoes
away! hahahaha )

LOOK AT ME GO! SEXY BEAST! HAHAHHA

HAHA! okay! next thing i did! WASH THE CAR! i don't have a picture of me doing it but its okay. just picture me la. easy! sexy and wet. HAHAHAHAHA! it's christmas eve as i say again! but i'm at home! please someone help me, im dying here infront of you. OH! and im not going to stacey's cause apparantly she cant stay awake, she aint feeling well and travis and kieran have to sleep early or else santa doesnt come. thats what stace told me. so yes. im gonna go drive around later with my parents to go look at christmas lightings. haha oh well. thats a start to this lovely christmas. YOU KNOW WHAT! of all the 16 christmas masses i've been to in my life. THIS YEAR'S IS LIKE THE WORST LA. WTH! aiya, i'll go change the template. i just realised my blog is too thin! aiya i dunno how to say. i know must change thats all. HAHA! OKAY! thats enough for today. Merry Christmas everybody. I Love You All! please enjoy your christmas and have a good time! take care of yourselves, and i'll be back in singapore soon!

Love

NIGELLY!

PS: im still hoping santa will pick me up tonight to see you guys! :D

Day 4 - 1st Half!

2005-12-24T12:40:00.000+08:00

it's fucking christmas eve.

do you feel it?

i don't. nb cb.

sorry, don't mind me swearing. i seriously cannot take it. i feel like swearing today every second. knn. today i think i woke up on the fucking wrong side of the motherfucking bed. i woke up and i was damn pissed, moody, fucked up and everything but happy. it hit me so hard today that i can't see my friends on christmas. IT HIT ME SO HARD THAT I DIN NOTICE IT WAS CHRISTMAS! I DON'T FEEL IT! YOU UNDERSTAND ME?!

sorry.

Today went to some stupid market, i had no mood to see whatever they sold or tell my parents what i wanted. they kept asking whether i want this whether i want that. i mean im happy they care for me. but today is just not my day. knowing today is christmas eve, no one will be online to talk to me cause they all are celebrating somewhere else. thank god theres still stacey over here in australia! later im going to mass with her and i promised her we must dress up. i promised rese i'll make the most out of this pathetic christmas day this year. will what i watch on TV those santa movies where you must believe and all come true? if i believe and pray and keep the christmas spirit will i be able to go back to singapore just for the remaining days of christmas to visit everyone? PLEASE LA!

okay, stop getting all emo and all stupid boy! time to face facts and live your life like a man you nit wit. hello! okay i miss everyone! i'll be strong for all of you! and when i come back, im hoping nothing changes. i know i wont change. lets have faith in each other!

tonight im going over to stacey's to stay over for christmas night! with her brothers and her! so shiok. at least i wont be alone for christmas. today i made a promise. this will be the last christmas i will feel lonely and sad. nvr will i go through this again. by hook or by crook i will spend christmaswith my friends and family and the same time. i'll drag my family's asses down to singapore.

hahahaha i feel like performing! rocking xmas 3 was so fun la.
MARTIN SEND ME THE VIDEO! PLEASE! im so bored. i think i should look for some series dvd thingy, to keep me occupied or like subscribe for the FoxTel thingy. hell of alota channels balls. okok! i'll post Second Half tonight! maybe at home or maybe at Stacey's.

BYE! LOVE
NIGELLY!

take care okay you all, have yourself a merry little christmas. (:

Day 3 - Second Half!

2005-12-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone again! i'm having abit of the both happy and sad feeling now! :D okay! first up after lunch today, i was on the com and then i got bored! i took my skate board and i skate around the neighbourhood. MY FREAKING NEIGHBOURHOOD IS DAMN DEAD I SWEAR!!! i hardly saw anyone anywhere! and there was this damn mansion near my house. like really really near! so i skate there. LIKE WHOA! THE FREAKING GARDEN IS THE SIZE OF MY HOUSE'S LAND AREA! HHAHAHAHA! AND THE HOUSE IS FREAKING HUGE! then i skate around somemore and tried looking for my school, but i couldnt find it. hahahahha so i headed back. Then my dad came home, we are supposed to go to this christmas gathering thingy but honestly it din feel like one at all. i totally lost track of time here and i don't feel the christmas spirit at all! and the kids there are like super young and i had no one to talk to. but there was another girl about my age but she behaves like those 9 year olds. LIKE WTF! so whatever! screw it. i couldn't wait to leave cause i was going to STACEY'S HOUSE! gawd, first of all THAT WAS SALVATION! at last i met a friend in autralia, you know just being in the prescence of a friend is a good enough feeling to have. well slacked at her place, watch some really funny shows! ahahah i gotta subscribe for fox tv soon. I SWEAR ITS DAMN GOOD! gonna look out for MTV2! BEAT THAT! hahahaha. stacey's brothers are really friendly! gosh, my first time seeing them and they're like damn nice! i wish stacey could live like a few units away only. that way i wouldn't be so sad. and i cant wait for zac to come over. it's good to have companionship around! and that was the happy part. the sad part. sigh. i'll pass! :D its no good to be sad. and no matter what i still love you all! take care okay! i'm going back to msn AND PLEASE COME ONLINE LA! I DON'T WANA BE SO BORED ALONE! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! thank you soo much!

Love
NIGELLY!

PS: Please come down and visit okay? im definitely not gonna enjoy christmas this year. yup. ciao!

Day 3

2005-12-23T15:17:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE! TODAY IM DEDICATING THIS ENTRY TO JEANNINE :D THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEEDED YOU! TAKE CARE, I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU!

Okay! Hello everyone!
Last night Kenneth, Nat Liew, Hetty, Nat Ho, Nicole Lim, Joshua and I played truth or truth on MSN. it was fun! hahaha but im sorry, what has been said must be kept! anyway! i talked torese after truth or truth after that! haha i hope she doing fine. rese if you read this msg me k! :D so today has been rather simple. BUT WAIT!! LAST NIGHT BEFORE GOING TO SLEEP, I TURNED OFF THE LIGHTS AT LIKE 4.45AM AND THE SUN RISE ALREADY. WTF! HAHAHAHAHAH!!!! SO YES! as i was saying today, i woke up at like 1.30pm, THIS IS A 44 CALIBRE LOVE LETTER STRAIGHT FROM MY HEART. sorry, listening to the song. hahahaha, woke up at 1.30pm then ate lunch. wah piang, i've been stuffing myself with so much food lately! i think im gonna grow fat and when i come back to singapore everyone will call me ERIC! hahahahaha! Oh and yesterday i ate chicken rice, and the chicken rice here is liek 2 times the portion of what singapore gives you la. you have been conned! HAHAHA! oh yes! here's a note. if i ever get a chance to video conference with you and you're a guy, please don't look at the camera and talk to me. its damn sick. seriously! hahahhaah! ask kenneth. he's a fucker! hahahahaha. PLEASE GET A WEBCAM OKAY! I WANNA SEE ALL OF YOU!
To Shaun : MY HEART BLEEDS NO MORE! JENG TEH NET TEHNG! hahahahahaha! I MISS YOU LA BRO! try to come online k? ihavent spoken to you since i reached here! okay! i'll probably post something later on in the night! AND TONIGHT IM GOING TO MEET STACEY AT LAST! woohoo! :D

TAKE CARE EVERYBODY I LOVE YOU ALL
I MISS YOU ALL
LOVE
NIGELLY!

Day 2

2005-12-22T17:16:00.000+08:00

HELLO WORLD!
hahahahaha today is a much better day than yesterday.
I WOKE UP CAUSE THE TOILET IN MY MOTHER ROOM FLUSHED!
AND JUST WHERE THE HEAD OF MY BED IS, THE TOILETBOWL IN THEIR TOILET IS.
FREE WAKE UP CALL HAHAHAHAHA!
anyway i just came back from the city and all! went grocery shopping. its damn fun at the supermarket. serious! theres was this draught stopper thingy. its damn long and bendable but damn hard! hahahaha i was swinging it like mad till the person came to stop me. BOOOO.
i took a picture today! its seriously damn lucky i looked out of the car and saw it. hahaha i'll post the picture somewhere la. in this entry though. so look out for it! okay it's just on top! hahaha. IM GOING TO STACEY'S HOUSE LATER! AT LAST SALVATION! A FRIEND! WEEE! OH AND IM GONNA GROW ALOTA THINGS IN MY GARDEN I DONT CARE! PUMPKINS! SUNFLOWERS! AND ONIONS AND OTHER SHIT! GARDENING IS SO DAMN FUN!
okay! i wanna say something. today when i was in the car, it seriously hit me that it din feel like singapore at all. when i look out at car number plates its all funny and different. but the sky still looks so real and same. let me tell you why, i alwayslook up to the sky whenever i am down or in the car. and thats how i want ppl to connect with me. hahahaha look into the clouds. hopefully you see me waving to you! cause im hoping someone is waving to me! i keep forgetting what i wanna blog la. FUCK! anyway im uploading the pictures now! so gotta wait awhile before i can put up the picture! oh and yes, your everyday assurance. I LOVE YOU ALL AND I MISS YOU ALL! PLEASE DON'T EVER THNK I'LL FORGET YOU CAUSE I NEVER WILL! :D
and please come online more often if you may, im gonna freaking die of boredom online hahahahaha! OKAY I'LL STOP HERE TODAY! TAKE CARE EVERYONE! MUCH LOVE FROM ME TO YOU!

Day 1

2005-12-21T19:59:00.000+08:00

good evening.
it's day 1
i've never had this feeling before
but im not the only one who experienced it before
so i'll make it through! :D

hello everybody!

it's fucking Daphne Loves Derby - Part of my Past
playing on my player. so sad. ahahaha
oh i wanna tell everyone i'll never forget you guys
and i miss everyone of you.

last monday i had a really big suprise party at punggol park
SO MANY PPL! gosh. hahaha
i enjoyed myself. cried here and there

on tuesday! another suprise party
but this time at my house. again so many ppl. wah piang.
enough of suprises for now. hahahaha

okay

Well today, was the day i leave singapore for my studies.
it's really sad to think this day will come so fast!
anyway there were alota ppl at the airport to send me off
i aint ashamed, (: i'm very proud and happy to have all these friends!
i din cry outside. but on the plane i was a baby. after each note i picked up to read
my eyes couldn't take it after the last note. i went to sleep and woke up when it was 15mins
to arrival. hahaha! and honestly speaking i feel like i havent paid much attention to some
and i just leave, i feel so incomplete. to those who feel i havent heard everything from me please call me. my hp number is 0421921058. send me a message or something first.
i have so much to say yet im unable to.

I WANT EVERYONE TO BE HAPPY AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES!
ILOVEYOUALL!
:D

NIGELLY!